I can honestly say that being able to hear my intuition is one of the greatest gifts of my life. It wasn’t always that way. The anxiety I had was absolutely debilitating for a time and caused me to question “why bother living?”
But it was trying to tell me something. That I was going against my intuition.
That was 15 years ago. I still have “intuitive anxiety” as I call it, but this time I listen much sooner than waiting months or years, trying drugs to make it go away and give up my life energy just to not make the change my intuition was telling me to make (ending a relationship).
I now know exactly when it speaks, and why. I listen quickly, (after a little pleading of course, cause the ego wants to control and not let go), and the intuitive anxiety goes away.
The last year has been FILLED with intuitive direction. Some I’ve liked (like when I get a big YES in my heart for something), and some direction that I had a clear, “No, I don’t want to listen to what you’re asking me to do, but I’ll do it.
There’s a lot to share about my healing over the last year of chronic pain and EMF (electromagnetic field) sensitivity (it’s so incredible to feel the best of my life!).
I’m absolutely clear that it’s my intuition that lead me to my healing. It lead me to move past the doubts and take the action steps I needed to take to heal, that were right for me.
But for now, I’ll leave that part of the story for next time and focus on some specific intuitive directions I’ve had over the last 6 months and how they came to me (and some serious surprises).
After I healed from chronic back and hip pain in the fall of 2016, I spent a week with Dr. Joe Dispenza in Costa Rica, learning more about the power of the mind to heal the body.One evening, these words arose like a bell in my head, without anything else mixed in, “I’m a healer,” right in the middle of thinking about something completely unrelated.
“Oh, I responded to the voice. “I don’t know how to be a healer. I’ve never been one. Who am I to be a healer?” But I only partially entertained the ego and instead asked “What if I AM called to be a healer?”
The seed was planted. I knew that was an intuitive “hit” as I call it. It was like no other thought that went through my head. Like a messenger sending a message.
I’ve been considering those words ever since. My mind not sure what to think of it. But these last 3 months, intuition has been speaking louder.
I gave a talk in May on the power of the mind to heal the body. I had an incredible YES in my heart in giving it. It felt totally right. I felt on fire, passionate about what I was sharing. Intuition was screaming, YES, MORE!
But, behind the scenes, I held back, considering, “Was this really my path? To switch the direction of my work, my calling of being a “spiritual teacher” to being a “healer of the body?””
Friends I’ve confided in said, “Well, of course you’re a healer.” But in my mind, I did NOT see myself as someone who could heal the body.
But I put it out there, offering coaching to those that wanted to heal. And they came. More and more came. I had no idea how many people were and are suffering in their bodies.
I kept doubting myself though.
Then something really interesting happened. I was contacted by a very reputable organization in town to facilitate their annual weekend retreat on following your true calling for executives from all over state. It would be held in one of the most beautiful places in southwest Montana.
At first I said, “Yes, of course I’ll do it!” But something was holding me back. I responded, “Let me sit with this for a couple of days and I’ll get back to you.”
When I imagined doing it, the intuitive anxiety came up. I watched it. I resisted it. And I knew. I wasn’t being guided to do this. Intuition was guiding me to be a healer, and this was not in alignment with that.
How ironic that I was saying no to teaching people how to follow their true calling because my true calling is no longer that? I had a good laugh about that.
It also reminded me of the Solstice Ceremony in June when I got clear about what I wanted to let go of for the coming year and I wrote down, “I choose to let go of the lingering desire to control my path.”
Bam. There it is. Life was giving me an opportunity to let go and allow Divine to work through me. Could I fully surrender? I did, but it wasn’t easy.
Most recently, another opportunity to listen to my intuition came up that caused some serious kicking and screaming: the Esalen Institute contacted me to explore teaching a course for them (Esalen, in Big Sur, CA, is one of the leading centers for holistic programs in the U.S.)
My DREAM is to teach at Esalen. I was beyond ecstatic! The person I assist for there occasionally recommended me to teach a mother/daughter hiking workshop over Mother’s Day weekend – with my Mom. How awesome does that sound?
But there was a hesitation. Again, I sat with it, listening in meditation. The intuitive anxiety started, and I knew the answer. “Damn,” I screamed.
I cried as I wrote a response to Esalen. I was being guided to be a healer through the power of the mind, and that is where my focus and energy are now going.
Yet in the big picture, I live an incredibly remarkable and gifted life. I kept reminding myself of this fact.
I told myself that I will bring this modality of healing to Esalen, and I told Esalen that too.
Intuition is also telling me (it’s something I sense), that I’ll be joining the wisdom of the spiritual teachings with the science of the mind and body to create a holistic program. I want people to feel the best of their lives, because I know it’s possible. I know everyone can heal. The power of the mind is that extraordinary.
Listen to your intuition. It’s talking to you every day. But you’ve got to slow down to hear it. The quiet voice in the background, that’s her/him.
It comes in various forms. Sometimes we like what it says, sometimes we don’t. But I’ve learned along the way that intuition ALWAYS knows. Always.
Here’s some helpful tips on how to listen to your intuition:
- It may come as a clear intuitive “hit.” Which is in the form of just 3 to 4 words. Not, “well, maybe if I….” or “I should go because…” or What if they don’t….” That’s all ego. That’s based on fear of the unknown.
- Listen to your body. Your body is always talking to you as well. What you feel in your body is a reflection of what is going on in your mind. Act on the YES’s and respect the NO’s intuition gives you.
- Sit with it. Meditation is incredibly helpful in learning to listen to and trust your intuition.
- Develop a loving relationship with yourself. The more you accept and love yourself as you are, the more you’ll listen to and trust your intuition. They go hand in hand.
Listen, as intuition knows what to do. Even if it’s not logical or practical. You are guided and loved in every moment of every day.
Categories: Health & Happiness, Inner Wisdom & Intuition